I've been a collector/shooter for most of my life. I've also collected knives and had other hobbies like quad racing and R/C racing too, things that I've thrown irresponsible amounts of money at. Before my divorce just over 5 years ago (was married for 22 years), I had a 6 figure gun collection, as well as a 6 figure knife collection. Because of ending up borderline homeless and extremely depressed after my divorce I sold most of those material things off, and I'll be honest with you, I wasn't very sad about doing so. When life was good and money was fairly abundant, I bought stuff that I liked. When life was not so good, well, because there really wasn't any place for it in my life any longer, I got rid of it for things that were more important at the time.
Fast forward to today, I'm doing much better now. I bought another house, quit my job of 16 years because I hated it and it was killing me on the inside, and I turned one of my passions into a business by opening up a Brazilian Jiu Jitsu school 2 blocks from my house. My business started taking off fairly well over the last few months and so I have started buying a few things again, Air Guns being the main. Yesterday I kind of made an impulse buy because something that is very hard to find became available and so I bought it. It's an FX Impact M3 Compact in 22 cal, bronze and brand new. I was only supposed to spend like 90 bucks on 5 tins of 30 cal Hades but instead ending up spending $2500 bucks. After doing so, I started feeling a little bit guilty because I don't really need the rifle and then I started fighting with myself and kicking myself in my own balls.
Here's the thing about men and hobbies, and this is the truth for me: I work hard, I've suffered a great deal in my life starting from childhood, I've lost a lot of people and things in my life that have led to great amounts of trauma on the inside leading to pain that I have to deal with every single day. And so, the reason I continue to buy new things like Air Rifles that I don't need, and I'm being brutally honest here, it's because I like them a lot and they make me feel happy. I love buying a new air rifle, decking it out, then sitting it on the rug on the floor beneath the T.V. so that I can look at my new gun while I watch T.V. I love shooting in my backyard throughout the day before I go into my school to teach in the afternoon. I'm going to die one day and I don't want to be laying there in my final moment saying "Well S&%t, I sure wished I would of just bought that damn M3 Compact when I had the chance."
As long as your bills are paid, and your responsibilities are taken care of, screw it man, just buy the dang thing! You'll only maybe regret it until you start squeezing that trigger and sending some pellets/slugs down range.
We're all gonna die, so may as well live while we're here.......