Dr
you made me cry thinking about your Dad and Mom
.. life is tough sometimes and a prayer is all we have.. I don't know if you know, but the main ingredient in crossbow is agent orange.. used it for a lot of years spraying hayfield to get rid of lupine and black berries.. people don't like them in the horse hay.. however one day I was mixing a tank.. 50 gallon to do I think 10 acres and while it was in mixing the pump diaphragm exploded and I was soaked with it.. I got a bottle of dish soap and used a cold hose behind their barn and washed off 7 times and then shower when I got home.. stunk so bad I could barely stand the smell of myself.. unfortunately if you farm in the Pacific Northwest.. it's impossible to farm without the chemicals because doesn't matter what you offer to pay people don't want to work.. and well I have to laugh at the lawsuit against roundup.. yes it is carcinogen but it's water compared to crossbow..
so 2018 hip cancer and 2020 yes during the pandemic I got lymphoma on my collar bone area and the only reason why I was able to get surgery, even though I couldn't get regular medical care was at night the avocado size growth would move around and block my breathing.. I was fortunate that they took it out and, it was contained.. my friend Ricky across the street sprayed too, but he never got wet with the chemical.. he had lymphoma and he was on chemo for a year.. made him so sick.. and now I have prostate cancer and it was diagnosed wrong a year ago.. now it's outside the prostate and into the nerves and it's extremely painful.. March is the next surgery and I was ok with the others but I am terrified of this one.. I moved from the farm to back in the woods where I like it.. done farming, just grow my vegetables now,
mostly corn but everything else too.. I hope this is my last surgery..
thank you for all your kind words and prayers..
Mark