I feel like it is normal, you can catch a break, maybe ride it a little, and then BAM and life take a abrupt turn.
Where you are have a big say, i have many unanswered questions about the US, things i would like to know, but not VIA a 2 page wall of text, but maybe a relaxing talk on a porch with something cold in the hand.
Also quite a few unanswered questions in regard to my native country, which worry / scare me even more CUZ that is what i am directly exposed to myself.
Yesterday i saw one of those things that put things in perspective and oddly calm me, someone filmed a little girl in Palestine walking along a road with her little sister over her shoulder, news here said she had been walking like that for a hour with the sister that hurt her leg getting hit by a car ( of all the things that happen down there ATM )
On a side note, the reason i just got a NV scope, well my friend died ( heart attack ) and was resuscitated 12 times in the spam of a hour or two years ago, if he kick the bucket again and permanent, well i am without a place to shoot, and i would have to get creative.
Nothing to do but fight.